Slowly, and gently, I've emerged from my shell,
Hindering my crying, resisting it's hell.
The pain that you've caused me, baby it's unthinkable...
But the sain way I'm acting, It's more than principle.
I'm starting to really feel like I could look in your eyes,
and the memories wouldnt remind me, of my muffled, broken cries.
I could just stare, blink and look away,
and not feel my heart pound harder,
with every words that you say.
You're just a passing thought,
Far from my whole world,
I dont feel so distraught,
When I think of the way I've twirled.
Jumped around in cirles,
Danced on my tippy toes,
I can just think about it,
and smell a beautiiful rose.
I dont wish it was different,
And I dont think you're a lie.
I think our paths are different,
And maybe in a different life,
We'll fall deep in love, like we already have,
We'll live happily ever after,
and that'll be the end of that.
But today, in this moment,
Im me and you are you...
There's a lot of different feelings,
That have been felt and that are true,
but in this very moment,
That's all in the past...
And I've finally healed up,
It's time to take off my cast...
I can look in your eyes,
and watch them smile their sweet blue,
and still feel a love,
for the brother I know in you..
I dont need you to hold me,
and I dont want to sit on your lap.
I just want a conversation,
where we dont mourn for the past.
It fills me with happiness,
that the rainbows finally come...
And I small, for at last,
This painful affair is done.

This poem is dedicated to my friend Sea, who I will always love, care, and be there for.

Of all of the people I've ever met...
You're one of the ones that I just can't forget.
I never want you to feel alone,
and so I'll carve our good times in stone..
I promise I'll always be there for you,
and I promise the words I say will be true,
I promise I'll be here... A shoulder to cry,
Not a fact that I speak will whisper a lie,
A hord of promises
that I can set...
But mostly,
My promise:
I will not forget.

This Poem is dedicated to my friend Emily Kim, who lit up my life, and inspired my soul.

Life is a journey,
Just as it is a challenge.
It is a journey for truth,
A quest for light,
And a strive for hope,
In all ways.

Ocean,
Aqua, blue,
Wishing, Washing, Waving,
Exhilaration fills me up.
Sea.

Desert,
Dry, Parched,
Blowing, Scorching, Burning,
Blazed dazed, green lush,
Swinging, Growing, Blooming,
Rich grassy,
Jungle.

Fire,
Red, incandescent,
Burning, Crackling, Ignited,
Boiling, Hot, Soothing cool,
Flowing Gushing, Rippling,
Calm, Excited,
Waterfall.

Moonlight
Dark, Ghostly
Glaring, Shining, Shivering.
White, wistful, bright, warm.
Burning, glowing, illuminating,
Blissful, alert,
Sunlight.

Dragon
Fierce, bold
Roaring, growling, frowning
Empty loneliness hurts hearts
Monster

Wolf.
Strong. Proud
Prowling. Fighting. Protecting
Paws. Claws. Teeth. Jaws
Pouncing. Dancing. Prancing
Cunning. Wise
Tiger.

Though I can lie,

And deny it,

Although I can

Hide from and fight it,

There's this everlasting

Phenomenon going on,

In my heart and soul.

I can push it away,

Like rot and decay,

I can rip up the poems

That I wrote.

Yet I always seem to choke,

Sent from my heart to my throat.

No matter what happens,

I'll still want you to be mine,

Your smile sublime,

That catches my mind.

My heart aches for you,

My lustful soul,

Served on a platter,

I'm here, in the bowl!

Frightful you don't want me,

The way I do, you,

Frightful you don't love me,

The way you used to.

I once wrote a poem,

That told you I'd remain,

I'd hold in my kisses,

Until the day,

When I could give them to you.

It pisses me off that I know what to say,

But then I see your face,

And it all fades away…


What I'm trying to say,

Without being bold,

Is yours is the hand,

That I want to hold.

I'm kind of nervous,

And I'm really quite shy,

But I just want you to kiss me,

I can't explain why.



The butterflies in my stomach,

Just wont go away,

Reminding me of the things,

That I can't seem to say.

But out of all of the people,

That I've ever met,

You are the one,

That I cannot forget.

I'm not trying to be sappy,

Not really at all,

But my heart beats so fast,

When I get your phone call.

Small is the last thing that voice in my head,

Can ever hope to be…

It's impassioned and frightful,

And it's screaming at me!

It wants you to hold me in your arms,

And never say goodbye,

It wants you to dry every last tear,

That will ever fall from my eye.

It wants me to touch you,

In every last place,

And yet just these thoughts,

Bring severe red to my face.

It wants me to kiss you,

Right there and then!

But I fail this voice,

again and again

I'm afraid of rejection,

Of the face that you'll make…

I'm afraid that you'll push me away,

And I wont know what to think.


I just want you to know,
That I want you to hold my hand,
And that I just can't stand,
Not being close to you.